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2011...

2011-10-09T01:07:00.003+08:00

this will be my truly 'first' post for 2011...

i am sad n angry to myself..a lot of things happened this year, i'm not sure how i've gone through..tears,pain..so many broken hearts..

i hurt him a lots n i hurt myself a lots too..u see, ppl said how much did u love someone is the same price when u're getting the hurt n pains, well it's true..both of us really feel the pains now...

i become angrier than before, disgust, hateful n annoying...even i can't stand myself, i wonder how he still stand by me...i just couldn't control my emotion, feeling..i'm angry to myself, him the family..everybody...i just hate this place right, i just want to go away, left it behind n run to a place where i'm being love n wanted...

it's just too painful, i wonder if i can stand another year for it, i just don't know n i'm not sure...i become more tired and tired since the last 6 months, i just don't when my heart couldn't bear n stop..

he just continue to work work n work...someday he will not even realize that my love remain a few pieces left n then...puffff it's gone..i'm tired Ya Tuhan...i don't know what i'm waiting for, my life's too perfect that make everything look so boring n empty....

Ya Allah, lately i just can't control my angry, emotion, maknanya makin kurang ibadat ku pada mu...spiritual, kerohanian, keimanan makin lemah..i need ur guidance Tuhanku..kuatkanlah semangatku...jadikan aku setabah dulu,sentiasa gembira, tahan dan sabar segala ranjau yg dilalui...

hidupku baru bermula, Ya Allah..jauh lagi perjalananku..mudahkanlah jalanku, aku sentiasa mohon petujukmu, keampunanmu, keredhaanmu Ya Allah, Ya Rabbulalamin...

2011..year of planning and initiating

2011-02-02T16:58:00.001+08:00

well...test2...haha, dah lama xpost dol...

Yeah (^_^)

2010-01-19T13:04:00.001+08:00

It's all out...after I wrote it..

He's coming back today...looking forward to meet him soon.. (*_*)

owhh gosh..what should i do...happy2.. =)

he meant everything to me...

Year 2010..

2010-01-19T12:25:00.005+08:00

It's been passed 18 days now from the New Year...well..apa yek azam tahun baru nih..

Azam pertama dgn En.Fazli, we crea8 some sort of deal together...
Nak kurus...ahahha..
Nak beli barang rmh..hehehe tv, mesin basuh, peti ais, water heater..gler ar..
Tambahkan amal ibadat...aminnn.

Tahun ni dh abes master..xbnyk benda nk buat, so kind of boring. En.Fazli kata better concentrate on our future together..nnt dh kawen then dah naik pangkat sket baru sambung belajar..teringin nk sambut kat luar, tp tgk la ada rezeki ke tak..

First day of new year..dh bergaduh dgn en.Fazli, agaknya mcmana utk the next 355 days nnt..last year sbb tgh study so, xfokus sgt relationship, tp tahun ni dh xblajar..i'm quite worried =( when i'm too into the relationship mcm2 i'll think of..kata perempuan mesti pk yg bukan2..harap dia dpt bersabar dgn karenah saya...hihihi

Be or Not to be at Singapore

2009-09-15T15:01:00.003+08:00

Well...I admit I'm not yet ready for this meeting.I've not finished my reading yet, plus when I'm supposed to discuss with my boss, he felt sick for a week...So, I came here half prepare, still a learner, observed the world plan for environment..waaaa...it's really technical, but i struggle to be among these people..

The meeting is Asia-Pacific Economic Cooperation(APEC) Aviation Emissions Task Force (AETF) at Singapore Aviation Academy(SAA), near Changi. Still an interesting topic or area that I need to cover..wow really need a lot of study on this matter..huhuhu me covering the 44 post for substantial issues like environment, communicable disease, D-8 etc..the truth is I'm busy with my study, which it's in the final stage, but lot a lot of problem rise lately..so that's why,I'm trying hard, really hard to catch up everything, and this environment thing was left aside...

I wish i had more time to study this matter more...aiyoo..felt guilty :(

to My dearest Sayang...there's always up and down in our relaltionship. but most important is we get thru it together..ur weaknesses is my strength & my weakness is ur strength..love u much sayang..can't wait to see u again..

Blast Wikend wit My Frenz

2009-08-21T08:17:00.008+08:00

It took a week to plan this...ekceli we got 3 options, karok+bowling, picnic and hiking. Mula2, choose hiking..tp sbb ramai xsanggup nk bgn pagi so we all decide to choose piknik yakni bermandi-manda sempena kedatangan bulan posa ni. Target asal participants hanyalah 10 org, tp di saat akhir ada yg menarik diri (mana yg xde dlm gambar di sebelah) dan penambahan iskandar & rombongan meriuhkan kembali piknik kali ni. Tgk la barang2 yang kitaorg bawak tu. Seawal 7 pagi, aku dgn hanim sudah berada di dapur menyiapkan apa yg perlu. Sekali pukul 8 lebih tu cik ikha tepon kata dia xdpt xpegi..sedey larrr..mcm2 xcuse bagi suh dia pujuk boss dia, tp tu ar, xbole pegi jugak..tp taper, task dia utk menggoreng nuggets dan sosej tetap dijalankan...(oih ikha, tupperware mung ada di rumah ku lagi). Soseksosek..kol 9.30 baru gerak dari Putrajaya, setelah selesai tunggu a'aa, amik en.fazli..roger org sana sini. Dalam kol 10.30 camtu dah smpai kat rmh khalid yg sedia menanti smbil mencekak pinggang. Kak lin pon dah smpai. Disebabkan masuh menunggu aina/akhi dan juga rombongan Isz, so kami pegi minum2 dlu..smpai kol 11 lebih. Pastu kete swift smpai diikuti kete Isz dan kami pon bergerak ke sana.

On the way tu, ada pulak aksi kejar mengejar antara kete gen2(driver a'aa) dan honda Isz.Dengan muatan yang agak berat a'aa berjaya memintas kete Isz dgn jayanya. Namun, memikirkan bekalan makanan yg penuh di belakang akhirnya terpaksa mengalah utk memperlahankan kete yakni agak tertinggal jauh 10 tiang di belakang kete2 lain. Aksi kejar mengejar di join sama oleh swift yg memerhati agak lama di belakang namun, masih tidak memotong kete kalid,yg megah men'lead' kete2 lain. Ye ar, sape brani potong, sebab dia je yg tau jalan ke situ...cess. So, dlm kol 12 lebih smpai la ke situ. Mandi2 segala smpai kol 3.30.. makan2, mandi2, terjun2, berenang2, selam menyelam, syampoo menyampoo & sebagainya..Dalam kol 4 lebih tu kami pon bertolak balik, tp sempat la singgah kebun kalid utk bertukar pakaian..oopss masih terasa kesakitan saat2 tergelincir di air terjun...tp bes la trip kali ni..hihihi next time pegi lagi..okeh

2nd Note

2009-08-18T08:42:00.000+08:00

It's 18th August today. A lot of things happened lately. In 4 days, the month of Ramadhan is soon to arrive. Wow, time really move so fast. As quote say 'time wait for no one'. I have to move fast to0, a lot of things must be solved within this 2 months. Every nite is really precious to me, since I'm working in the day. Lately, I'm just concentrating doing my IS(Independent Study) ----> which is my final subject for this master thing. I'm work hard..really I'm trying hard.

Rite now, it's just about my study, my sayang & my work revolve around me. My family? Once a month I try to go back...but there always an issue when I go back..I dunno, sometime I couldn't control everything. My sister? I bet she never care what's happening to her siblings..she has her own world, separate from us. I never asked her help..does she ever want to help us?

... don't want to think anymore...I must finished all the work here in Putrajaya b4 go back at the end of this month. I don't care with others. What am I doing now is for myself, my work, my master is for myself..I have nothing else to bring to the future. So, I'm really work hard now...

Ya Allah, Ya Tuhanku, Ya Rabbulalamin..permudahkanlah jalan yang kupilih ini..amin

1st Note

2009-07-31T09:24:00.000+08:00

It's 5 more minutes b4 the meeting. and guess what? I managed to create the very first time my own blog..ehehehe waaa..running out of time..got to to..c ya~